N4redBeatz

When I was just a kid I separated myself from The Most High. I didn't have many friends and I felt my creator didn't really love me. I was a shy child and lived inside of my imagination. None of my family provided positive role models so my imagination drifted to the negative by the time I was seventeen. The only thing I ever really loved was music and writing. Music was my savior. I was possessed by it. It controlled me. And drug use provided an experience to get the most out of the music that I felt so passionately. Reality and art then became blurred. In my life they had merged as one powerful demon. This type of mixture lead my life down a painful ever-falling tunnel that seemed to have no bottom. I had gotten myself involved in everything negative and undignified. I was confused. I wanted what the big rap stars had, the fame and the praise and the money and the women. This type of illusion drove my actions for many many years until I was totally worn out and then the truth finally hit me. For some reason I started to see through the smoke. I started to see that the rap Icons that had so influenced me and my destructive life were surrounded by massive continuous problems. They were involved in everything that had destroyed my life, but on a larger scale. The crime, drugs, guns, sex, prison, and death. At first I thought it was me doing this thinking, but later I realized it was the Most High talking to me. Telling me that there was a road that I got off of when I was just a kid. A road that was different from any road I had ventured down my entire life. Then a heavy sensation came over me. A deep realization that was piercing my heart. For the first time in my life I knew I needed Christ

(Yahawahashai). I didn't know what He wanted from me but I knew I needed Him, because I could feel it. In my soul. Every foul thing that I had in my life started to make me sick. My own music (thug music from 1993-1998) made me sick to the point that I couldn't even stand to listen to it. My ways made me sick. The only thing that made me feel good was reading the Bible and praying. The more I read, the more I changed. Until finally one day I took all my thug music and destroyed it. At this point I still didn't know what the Messiah wanted from me, but I knew I wanted love and Peace from Him. I wanted salvation. I wanted eternal life, but He wasn't finished with me. He told me, "You don't have to give up your music". "I'm going to use you, I gave you that talent, I had a plan for you all the time, even from your birth". Now I can see through the traps and the temptations of the devil. My eyes are open. The Most High never intended for man to make his own way. He always intended to lead and guide man. Well He is my Guide. He is my Father, and Yahawahashai, His Son, is my Savior, and my best friend. Since those dark days I been doing this work for Them, from 1999-2014 and all of that music is right here.